Musings of a twiddling mind....

Again, I have failed to keep my word about blogging regularly. Finally, I have realized the fact that I can blog only when my mind is full and I think that's the reason I chose blogging - to unburden my mind when it's full to the brim. So this is one such day, I suppose when I have lots to talk about here.

I am now walking through that phase of my life where things are going a little slower than I want them to go. I am trying to change my field of career and in another week the results of the interview that I attended last month will clear up the haze in front of me. I had the opportunity to visit Hyderabad for the first time and to tell you the truth, I didn't like what I saw of the city even a bit, might be I chose the wrong places to see the first time. If you ask me, I will say that it's the most crowded compared to any other South Indian cities. The plethora of automobiles in the city roads were just so horrible. I was afraid to even step out of the vehicle lest someone comes and hits you at the flick of an eyelid. I wanted to visit Ramoji Film City but I had only three days' time there and couldn't make it. My foremost wish before leaving Hyd was to have an original Hyderabadi Biriyani and that wish was met at Paradise on the night before I left the city and I owe so much to my friend 'goggles' who helped me find a comfortable accommodation and who even came and took me for sightseeing out there.

These days I am learning new things about life. Life sometimes shows us the humorous part hidden in its folds and one such thing has happened to me in these few days. I had written about my first crush S long back on this blog. I have cried years back thinking I will never be able to make him realize how much I like him and now everything has 'about-turned.' I used to get calls from him about how much he wanted to come to my place and so on because the city he is in is far away and it's hell of a busy one. But the past week I got a strange mail from him saying he wanted to talk to my parents about a proposal for me (wasn't that weird?). It sounded so much like he was making fun of me because the condition that I am in, no one would come to me with such a proposal and I replied in the same humorous way (taking it so lightly because I thought it was meant to be taken that way). But the rest of his mails including the one I got today even after me being so satirical over his replies puts me in dilemma. Is he really, genuinely asking me? If so, I have got only one thing in my mind now, why is god so so so cloying when I least need it? I have no idea. This is one such situation which I had longed for many years back and then finally buried everything connected to it thinking it's such a ridiculous idea (because he and I are so incompatible to each other as I have realized overtime) and the important thing to quote here is that I no longer want to hear about such an idea especially from him. Look how life changes !!! I don't know but I am so scrappy about all these chain of events.

Has there been any such event in your life which you had longed for so much but didn't get hold of it and then suddenly it bounced back in your favor when you least wanted it?