At last.......

My beloved is radiant and ruddy,
    outstanding among ten thousand. 

 His head is purest gold;
    his hair is wavy
    and black as a raven. 

 His eyes are like doves
    by the water streams,
washed in milk,
    mounted like jewels. 

 His cheeks are like beds of spice
    yielding perfume.
His lips are like lilies
    dripping with myrrh. 

 His arms are rods of gold
    set with topaz.
His body is like polished ivory
    decorated with lapis lazuli.

His legs are pillars of marble
    set on bases of pure gold.
His appearance is like Lebanon,
    choice as its cedars.

His mouth is sweetness itself;
    he is altogether lovely.
This is my beloved, this is my friend,
    daughters of Jerusalem.

Adopted from Song of Songs

A way to love.....

Despite your indifference or cold discriminations,
there is a way to touch me with your spirit—

a way to let that soul hold me with its long feathers

But when you see me with those carnal eyes,
you cannot truly touch me—I fall from your fingers

Like pearls and roll into the cracks of your wooden floor



And there I see those black and white pictures of you
enhanced by the roll of my life line, and I know
that what you say is untrue—there “is” a way to love me....


Adapted from Tumblr

Tip...Tip...There goes the rain!!!!

Wow!!! The rain is back again...Whew...Isn't it nice to sit on your cozy bed and enjoy a cup of hot tea and listen to and watch the rain drops through your bedside window??? Well, am excactly doing that but not sitting on the bed and minus the 'garam' tea...But I can of course watch and listen to the rain outside the  window by my side..

Well, rainy season brings back memories in loads. It brings tears of joy, tears of hope and tears full of expectations for beautiful days ahead...There are some rainy songs which I cherish a lot...In fact, I thought of making this post a bit more bright with Songs that bring back memories into your life....Can we start off then?

Well, each song that I may bring out here might be related to somebody whom I wish I could see everyday...So no offense to anyone not mentioned!!!

The song which has really succeeded in bringing back old tuition class memories is the one from the movie 'Agnidevan'. Lyrics were by Gireesh Puthenchery and music by M.G. Radhakrishnan. The song Nilavinte really makes me remember the last day of our tuition classes when we had organized a program on the sent-off of the'99 batch and there was an anthakshari comp. and Raj with Bhavna had sung this song as a team...It was a surprise to me to know that he knew to sing too as he was considered as a stark kiddo politician of those days...

The song from the hit movie of the year 1998-99 Sallapam was a hit among us girls. Girls do mean the three of us, both my cousins and me.My elder cousins' classmate was a guy who was my grandma's neighbour and they used to make fun of me because I used to comment on his mannerisms. He was compared to the hero of the movie, none other than 'Dileep'. So the song Chandana written by Kaithapram and music by Johnson always used to bring a laugh from the three of us while watching it on TV. None of the elders understood why we giggled without any reasons!!!

The next is a song that is matchless in my memories.We, the housing colony kiddos organized a new year program on the new year of 2000 and there was a cine drama among the programs in which I was one of the main 'male' characters and the song penned by Vairamuthu and directed by A.R. Rahman Singanadai from the movie Padayappa was the highlight of the program as the drama began with the lead characters entering the stage dancing on this song!!! Whew! Those were golden days my dear...

My hostel days at Coimbatore are remarkable with the 'dhun' of this song which was repeatedly played in all the rooms on our floor and it was like an anthem to us. So even after 7 years of leaving Coimbatore, when I hear this song from 7G Rainbow Colony whose lyrics were penned by Muthukumar and music by Yuvan Shankar Raja Kan pesum it brings back the faces of all my dear Tamilian friends whom I really really miss a lot...

The song that I hate to hear and which brings me memories which I want to spit out is Fakir's Kaash hum. It sounds like a chain of lies told by someone trusted. It was one of my favourite songs when I first heard it but now I have just deleted that song out from my playlist because it brings stinging memories to me when played in a lonely room.

The song from the movie Muskan Betaab dil really brings tears as it reminds me how broken hearted I had been on the 9th of September in 2006. This song was played on the evening of that day just to let someone know that I really cared a lot...

Then came the golden days of my life when I found a real friend who really inspired me and let me blow up myself in full swing and this song is very special to me in the sense that it was when this movie was out that our friendship began and the journeys by bus for OJT reminded of how good a friend I gained during those less than 15 days..Written by Sayeed Qadri and Kumar and music by Pritam, the song from Tum Milejust steals my heart every time I listen to it.

The winter of 2009, I will never forget that.The chill that runs down myself is something worth feeling again and for that I ask the help of this song from Sangharsh whose music is by Jatin-Lalit. The only song that makes me feel that I am back in that garden under the evening sky shivering even with a sweater on and someone had made me hold his mobile phone and plugged the earphone into my ears and walked away and there goes Mujhe raat din. Wow, I am still getting goosebumps at the thought of that song and the garden....

There are lot more songs which I wanted to play here but time has run up and I need to go get something to eat and drink...So see you next time guyzz....

The end is near....

Just all of a sudden, a bloody idea crept onto my mind which I shouldn't have allowed to !!! "I should stop blogging"! Well, I know I am not being read by many other than the ones who know me and nowadays that ones have turned to just 'one' and I think there is no point in posting here if my thoughts just annoy others.

Well, it is just an idea now and I won't be going away anyway without a proper goodbye.

Life as I had told you earlier has come to a standstill. There seems to be no road ahead. It's dark all of a sudden. As if I all the street lights were put off by someone far away. No moonlight to guide through and the sun has stopped rising. All the dreams and all the good thoughts have flown away from my brain. I feel empty inside, an emptiness which cannot be filled by anything. No feeling of happiness can come near me as I am standing in stark darkness. All around I can feel the Harry Potter type 'dementor's' presence as if they are sucking the life out of me, the energy, the power, the happiness and the enthusiasm to move forward is all lost to them. I can feel them floating around me, devouring upon my youthful soul, drying me to the root so that my mind and soul gets desiccated.

Was this what I had been waiting all along? Was it for this that I fought with such rigour? Is this the way my life is going to end up? I wanted to change everything but now I don't feel strong enough for that. The people I cared no longer care for me because I am just a mere burden upon everyone. Is that the truth? Am I such a horrible person? Can't anyone see the pain I am going through? The way I am suffering? I was not the only one who brought this upon me. The one who brought this upon me is going to have a beautiful life very soon. Is it in the destiny of an innocent person to suffer for other's sins? No one knows the answers to what I am searching for. But still.....my heart just hopes....if someone could show me the way out.....