These days am in a kind of trance, dont know whether i am in the real world or a world of illusions. The one conclusion that i have come to on my blog is that i can never write anything true in this unless i remov my url from my social networking site, if u know me, u'll b knowing which site it is, right?? for others, it's orkut..it hs been almost half a month now that i have opened my account in orkut, u know y? the key to it is with someone else, i ws forced to consent to AM's pleadings and had to giv it away. I still dont know whether it was for good or for d worst, anyway, i'll be coming back there by the middle of aug, i hope but that too for a brief period of time...i know u all will be missing me a lot, LOL (I also know it wil b d other way round)....whatever, let me come back to the trance in which i am in. these days am spending too mch time dreaming of my future (i really dont know how and when will that rather surreal matter clear up). i have my belief going really strong that i will soon be united with AM but still unsure how long that will take coz there are so much things to be settled befor that...if i take it in a light way, it's such a simple thing....but there do come into play a lot of factors when taken seriously which just dont seem to be ready to resolve....anyway, lets hope everything ends well....
It has been raining heavily at my place since yesterday..i just had a big run to the post office to post some snaps for AM...he wants it so badly i dont know y. Whatever, i dont want to refuse granding his wish, so i went but unfortunately, they wont accept speed posts after 3, and its already 3:45 in my watch now, better luck tomorrow. now i'll have to manage with some lie about getting stuck in the rain, lol...
Yesterday, i got to hear something really terrible from my long lost friend...he had ceased to be my friend long back, actually our frndship had lasted only for a month, to be exact and then things changed for him and me and his feelings for me changed frm frndship to somethin else...and u know d end note, d friendship broke...but yesterday, S conveyed a terrible thing to me which i feel even mor afraid to reveal here lest it catches his eyes. d true thing to reveal is that he has been engaged in some immoral acts, i dont know for wat reason he had to do that, whether it was d thirst in his mind or whether it was his failure to control his senses, or whether it was something that he wanted so badly..whatever it was, i just know one thing, IT WAS NOT THE RIGHT THING...in whatever modern aspect i try to look at it, i cant find anything reasonable about it, it was a very cheesy act...this should not have happened. i really feel like punching him for this act. Its not becoz am feeling upset or things, i really am not even a bit sad that this happened. But am feeling pity that a good person z leading himself to self destruction knowing fully well that it could wipeout his goals in a second if he is not really careful with his life...i cant explain this to S coz he knows things better than me. So i left it for himself to decide bcoz i dont think am a right person to judge on him in this matter but still am feeling bad that he had to stoop to this level.
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Hey! I was just thinking over what you said about S in this blog. Wouldn't you say anything to him at all? I mean to say that I have a freind who told me about something very similar. And that person is someone I consider to know better than I. But would you not say anything to bring him back to his senses? Sorry, I have to use anonymity fro this. But try to be as general as possible - and I won't be holding anything against you for what you say to this :)
Hai Mr./Ms. Anonym,
What did you exactly mean by bringing him back to his senses when he is already a person who is more sensible than me and when he exactly knows what he is doing, there's no question of me bringing him back to his senses...
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