Once again...

These days am in a kind of trance, dont know whether i am in the real world or a world of illusions. The one conclusion that i have come to on my blog is that i can never write anything true in this unless i remov my url from my social networking site, if u know me, u'll b knowing which site it is, right?? for others, it's orkut..it hs been almost half a month now that i have opened my account in orkut, u know y? the key to it is with someone else, i ws forced to consent to AM's pleadings and had to giv it away. I still dont know whether it was for good or for d worst, anyway, i'll be coming back there by the middle of aug, i hope but that too for a brief period of time...i know u all will be missing me a lot, LOL (I also know it wil b d other way round)....whatever, let me come back to the trance in which i am in. these days am spending too mch time dreaming of my future (i really dont know how and when will that rather surreal matter clear up). i have my belief going really strong that i will soon be united with AM but still unsure how long that will take coz there are so much things to be settled befor that...if i take it in a light way, it's such a simple thing....but there do come into play a lot of factors when taken seriously which just dont seem to be ready to resolve....anyway, lets hope everything ends well....

It has been raining heavily at my place since yesterday..i just had a big run to the post office to post some snaps for AM...he wants it so badly i dont know y. Whatever, i dont want to refuse granding his wish, so i went but unfortunately, they wont accept speed posts after 3, and its already 3:45 in my watch now, better luck tomorrow. now i'll have to manage with some lie about getting stuck in the rain, lol...

Yesterday, i got to hear something really terrible from my long lost friend...he had ceased to be my friend long back, actually our frndship had lasted only for a month, to be exact and then things changed for him and me and his feelings for me changed frm frndship to somethin else...and u know d end note, d friendship broke...but yesterday, S conveyed a terrible thing to me which i feel even mor afraid to reveal here lest it catches his eyes. d true thing to reveal is that he has been engaged in some immoral acts, i dont know for wat reason he had to do that, whether it was d thirst in his mind or whether it was his failure to control his senses, or whether it was something that he wanted so badly..whatever it was, i just know one thing, IT WAS NOT THE RIGHT THING...in whatever modern aspect i try to look at it, i cant find anything reasonable about it, it was a very cheesy act...this should not have happened. i really feel like punching him for this act. Its not becoz am feeling upset or things, i really am not even a bit sad that this happened. But am feeling pity that a good person z leading himself to self destruction knowing fully well that it could wipeout his goals in a second if he is not really careful with his life...i cant explain this to S coz he knows things better than me. So i left it for himself to decide bcoz i dont think am a right person to judge on him in this matter but still am feeling bad that he had to stoop to this level.

Wandering Thoughts....

I sat a long time looking at this page thinking of what to write about. My mind z all full of confused thoughts which am trying hard to put into order and listening to Amy Winehouse made it even harder for me. LOL!! I really liked her Grammy winning song. That was d first one that i heard of her. i listened to it first from somone els' profile on myspace. You might say am peeking into everyone's but to tell u the truth i love doing that, from browsing on and on and finding differnt ppl on the other side of the world is something that interests me a lot, so i do that everytime i get some time in between work and it's such one time that i landed upon a guy's profile with this song, and i luvd it. Later i came to know that this year's grammy was given to that particular song. Wow!!! Now, i remember, talking about peeping, why r they putting up their profile if ppl dont peek inside, huh? so i think thr's no probs in that, after all their effort in making thos profiles shudn't go unnoticed, right? Moreover, i dont get much time to watch songs these days, so my music knowledge is not uptodate. but am happy everyone around me are uptodate nd r providing me with what i want even if i dont get time to sit in front of d idiot box....do keep updating me friends!

Today was a usual sit-on-my-seat-with-fingers-glued-to-d-keyboard day for me. ya, truly, am talking bout my busy work. God knows when i'll get off all these transcription but on thinking deeply it's not that bad too. D guy who sits near me z such a fast runner (on keyboard)and that makes my efforts look a bit dull nd i try harder nd harder to reach him but whatever it b, i never happen to cross greater than my target+300 lines and he always ends up with a greater than 1000. If you are familiar with wat MT job is all about, you might be knowing what am talking bout. For others, i'll throw light, am talking bout d no. of lines i need to transcribe a day, those r d target lines.watever, lets not talk about work here also. move on ams, move on.

Days are moving on a bit faster these days for me. i barely find time to sit idly, don't know, but everywhr i turn, work waits me. morn to eve, office holds me so tight, eve at home, Mad never leaves me at all on d fone (ya,my fone z really ringing a lot these days), then comes amma, she z a differnt being, she never lets me shut my mouth, then d Lady dragon (named by Mad)z there to nudge you each second with somethin or d other, i'll introduce all these characters to you very soon, so dont sit nd scratch ur head for now. Sometimes i really feel life is all about "being a little sweet and a little sour"...I will return soon!