Today, I was not planning to post anything but as the afternoon rose, things started piling up in my mind and I thought it is better to jot them down than carry them forever in my mind until they vanish. Moreover, my mobile phone is not with me and that's making my life more easier or rather that's giving me more time to be with myself.
I was never addicted to mobile phones till the year 2006. 2006 changed many things in my life or to tell straight, this year made my life turn into a disaster, a hopeless one. But I found hope three years after that through a person who became the light of my life. I knew the road on which I was traveling will never lead me to good but I couldn't keep myself from it until he came. Now, that hope too is diminishing. I am afraid whether my being in his life is making his life distraught. He was only to be there for a short time in my life. Now I realise it's time to move on, for him and for me. This brings up the eternal truth: Nothing Lasts Forever.
Coming back to the day, I am sitting near the window in my room which opens out to the terrace where I can see all the girls' washed dresses hanging on ropes to dry up. The full blown sun is shining down but none of its rays can touch me as there is a sheltering wall in between. It feels good after a big round up of monthly cleaning of the room and cupboards, washing up your bedspreads and mosquito net and other messy clothes, having a shampoo bath and then sitting here on the old wooden cot immersed in my own world. It's good when life moves on according to the timetable. I think I have got accustomed to that and now anything that will disturb this routine might be held with contempt by me. I enjoy to see things neatly arranged and everything kept in order around you. It brings a kind of mental peace.
Now I don't feel sorry about my life. I am happy living it this way. I am happy there are people out there to whom I can talk out my heart. I don't have complaints that no one listens to me. I am not burdened with miseries or problems. Maybe God wants it this way. I have never felt lonely in my life except when I was left with an unknown man by someone whom I loved. Now I realize that feeling was foolish. It was immature. There is nothing like loneliness unless you create it. You are never lonely in your life. You have thousands of things to do and think over if you care about it.
I no more believe in destinies created by us. Whatever we try to create, they can be destroyed by the great power above. Hence if you want something to happen in your life, desire for it earnestly, work sincerely towards it, decide never to lose it and be positive in your mind, let whatever hurdles you have to face.
I wish all bloggers a happy WISH FULFILLING WEEK !!!!
I was never addicted to mobile phones till the year 2006. 2006 changed many things in my life or to tell straight, this year made my life turn into a disaster, a hopeless one. But I found hope three years after that through a person who became the light of my life. I knew the road on which I was traveling will never lead me to good but I couldn't keep myself from it until he came. Now, that hope too is diminishing. I am afraid whether my being in his life is making his life distraught. He was only to be there for a short time in my life. Now I realise it's time to move on, for him and for me. This brings up the eternal truth: Nothing Lasts Forever.
Coming back to the day, I am sitting near the window in my room which opens out to the terrace where I can see all the girls' washed dresses hanging on ropes to dry up. The full blown sun is shining down but none of its rays can touch me as there is a sheltering wall in between. It feels good after a big round up of monthly cleaning of the room and cupboards, washing up your bedspreads and mosquito net and other messy clothes, having a shampoo bath and then sitting here on the old wooden cot immersed in my own world. It's good when life moves on according to the timetable. I think I have got accustomed to that and now anything that will disturb this routine might be held with contempt by me. I enjoy to see things neatly arranged and everything kept in order around you. It brings a kind of mental peace.
Now I don't feel sorry about my life. I am happy living it this way. I am happy there are people out there to whom I can talk out my heart. I don't have complaints that no one listens to me. I am not burdened with miseries or problems. Maybe God wants it this way. I have never felt lonely in my life except when I was left with an unknown man by someone whom I loved. Now I realize that feeling was foolish. It was immature. There is nothing like loneliness unless you create it. You are never lonely in your life. You have thousands of things to do and think over if you care about it.
I no more believe in destinies created by us. Whatever we try to create, they can be destroyed by the great power above. Hence if you want something to happen in your life, desire for it earnestly, work sincerely towards it, decide never to lose it and be positive in your mind, let whatever hurdles you have to face.
