Winter has frozen my heart !!!

I watched
as the birds left.

my heart tugged in time
with their wings and
i hoped, the cold would come.

but, Winter
took to the open road
and lost its way.

sent us postcards and letters,
dated four days ago.

each the same
and different, with
worn edges and faded
longhand.

there will be, no Winter this year.

no frozen fingers or warm soups.
no thick blankets or fireplace memories.
no crisp mornings or fogged breath.

Winter, broke our hearts
and left us only
with the fading bodies,
of birds on the horizon.

Winter sends us its regards,
each message
coming further and further apart,
like our sweating lips.

there will be, no Winter this year.

Adapted from Tumblr

What should be my thoughts???

So...I have not been knowing what is happening around here because blogging has become a very minimal thing that I do in a month. After I left my previous job about a year back, I am seriously not finding enough time to read the blogs I love or write on my page. Needless to say, I find very less time even to surf on the web. One reason might be because I am out of my home with my job and I am not using Internet where I am staying and another reason might be that my mind is more or less entrapped in various other goings-on which I am unable to put into words.

Well, we had a grand time last month with our Hostel day celebs especially because myself and Swar had taken up everything on our heads and finally everything ended up just fine without any serious mishaps. Ooops, ya mishaps did happen...We lost one of our good friends (or whom we had thought to be) from our friends' chain as she turned out to be very different from what we thought her to be. It's when we come to know about people in a closed circle way, that we find their real character or the base of their character to be something entirely surprising. Some people turn out to be the most crooked behind and some people turn out to be the laziest ones that we have ever met and some turn out to be so immature that they need to be given a special tution on character-build. Well, it's all part of the game as we finally realized. We also learnt the biggest lesson that 'age can never make you grown up, it's the mind which makes you really grown up' with the way you understand situations and the way you tackle the hurdles that come across your way.

I have been thinking a lot about pursuing my studies these days as directed by my 'guide'. But I don't know why I am not getting that thrust to move forward and I am also not able to make out from where to begin. I know once I am into the groove, I can really move myself forward but I am not getting the right direction. Nowadays, Sid too is having a busy time with his main exam following and moreover, he is with his brother. These brothers always protects their younger ones and that's making my life a bit difficult but I believe that everything is for good only. Only patience helps one in one's life.

EQ ???@@@%%***

Your EQ is 107

You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. You're a bit moody, and sometimes you have trouble coping with every day life. But you're by no means depressed, and your good days definitely out number your bad days. There's nothing really wrong with your life, but you may not be living up to your actual potential. Negative emotions can be a real drain of your energy, so make sure you have them under control.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Good Days !!!

Very less time is left !!! You might be wondering for what, right???

Nothing that will seem important to you but it's a lot important to me right now than sitting here and writing on my blog. This thing is going to decide the direction of my life, as to where I will be, say, after 5 years from today. So I had better hurry up with this post.

I just wanted to jot down something which I have been thinking of for the past one week. Yeah, I had a great time at FBD with Sid. He made me teary eyed the first day I landed on the airport and I had even taken a rash decision as to never to make up with him ever again but as you know, rash things do get resolved in a rash way..Similarly, this thing also got sorted out by the time our cab reached the college. We didn't talk much during the drive because I was full of fury towards him for making me wait at the airport for a whole 3 hours and he was too shy to overcome my fury. Yeah, it's true that he is a slow one with such pacifying rules.

Well, I never knew how time ran away the last one week with him. Sunday, after reaching there, with the blink of an eye, it was Saturday, the time to leave the college. We shared so many happy moments together but one day I even hurt him by disclosing the dirtiest secret of my life and it really did hit him rather worse and he didn't talk to me for the rest of the time. The next morning, I thought I have lost him, but, him being the angel in my life, came to me and everything was alright again.

Now I feel the worst part of my life has gotten over. The mental tortures, the unwanted worries, the despicable people involved everything has come to an end. Now just one thing remains to be seen: WILL SUCCESS COME OUR WAY???? And I am confident that it will come our way. I am just crossing my fingers and waiting for everything to happen as and when we wish.

The journey back to my home on Saturday brought such a drastic change in my brain which I can't explain. He took me to his brother's place which was a hidden den of books neatly dumped on the tables surrounding him. He looked like a saint born to be great. A man with a calm, gentle dignified demeanor which just made me so happy that I am in such good company. Both brothers seemed like 'Ram&Lakshman' to me. Sid just followed his brother like his devotee. He used to talk to me about his brother so much but I never expected to meet such a gem of a person. I am glad that I am not with a wrong person this time. Now I just wish his brother achieves his aim and win his normal life back, that too, with more vigour than before.

Well, that's all I am planning to write just now because I too have a long mile to go before I "sleep". So see you soon guys!!!

Writer's Block !!!!

It's not a new thing for me.It has been following me for the past few years. Whenever I forcefully overcome it, then you can find my post over here. So here comes one such:

Today, it was blazingly hot over here and now that the sun has come down, the earth is getting a bit cooler. Yesterday, it had rained over here which gave us all a cool and pleasant atmosphere and we had an outdoor dinner in the night just because my sis was all over for it. But even I enjoyed sitting out for dinner. The rain that we get in the middle of summer is usually called "Mango Shower". It is in this season that we get mangoes and jackfruits in our backyard. When I was in my teens, my summer was always spent at my mother's home, about 60 km away from my home. There we used to have lots of mango trees and jackfruit trees and there used to be swarming flies around. Myself and my cousins used to gulp down those mangoes and the jackfruit pieces as soon as they reached the ground. Those were wonderful times of life !!!

Every time I read a new book, I jot down the best lines in those book which I find worthwhile remembering even after the story fades into the memory. Last year, I read 'The Kite Runner' and it was a pretty impressive read and I found the book very touching to the end. There are a few quotes which I would like to mention here:

'Every woman needed a husband. Even if he did silence the song in her.'

This line was worth pondering over. Is it really true that no woman can live a decent life without marriage? Yeah, it's true. In an Indian society, no woman can live alone, rather, people won't let her live her life on her own. I am sure there won't be any single woman who has never had a taste of bitterness from other people's tongues about her own life, the doubtful glances, the nasty interpretations about visitors, and questions that follow her wherever she go. The only single women who could put an end to all those were those who got into such high respectable jobs where no one dare look at her that way. But there are so many women who are weak to respond because they look at their husbands as their only god and are ready to suffer anything under his rule.

'Life is a train, get on board.'

Very true, life is a journey which we all undertake to reach our destination and so we all get on board the 'life train' the moment we are born into this world.

'A man who has no conscience, no goodness, does not suffer.'

In today's world, we find so many murderers, rapists, thieves and such hard hearted criminals who don't care whether they will be punished for their acts or not. They just act upon their will and never stops to listen to their conscience. And when we see how easily they escape the law, it does make us wonder whether that man will ever change. No, such men will never change because they never suffer inside for the cruel deeds they do.

'When you tell a lie, you steal a man's right to the truth.'

A very wonderful line which tells us the significance of telling truth always. Lie never makes us win a situation but it also destroys someone else' rights.

So I hope everyone who reads this finds these quotes interesting and thought provoking. If so, just don't forget to share your views with me dears.....