These days I find it difficult to find time to sit patiently and write my blog. So today the first thing I did in the morning after waking up was to schedule the things I need to do as Sundays seem to pass off with the velocity of light. I managed to finish my errands before afternoon and now my oil bath is the only big thing pending. I had an oil massage to my hair and then I thought of putting up a post here while the oil can find its way to the root of my hair.
Holidays are fun at times but not always. Sometimes I find holidays boring. I am not much of an outgoing person, so I spent my holidays at home, in front of TV or computer or books or chatting away with my mother. These days life seems to be stagnant. Things are happening as it should be but still I feel there is a calm, a calm that usually exists before a big storm. Hope this calm continues forever and no storm disrupts my life.
Sometimes I feel am a rather complicated person who don't know the right thing to choose in life. Although my decisions have never made me regret, I am afraid my decisions that are going to come in future may make me regret and that is something that I never want to happen. I love being with people who love me but when those people hate me loving the other one who cares about me, it creates an imbalance in my life. There are two such people in my life these days who are totally extreme in their character but who are exactly the same in showing their care for me. Choosing the best is not in my hands any more because deep in my heart I know I love both of them. But eventually things will have to straighten up and I will have to make a strong and firm decision which will change my life forever. Thinking of that day makes me shiver inside. I don't want to be a loser in my life anymore. I want to decide about only the best thing. Am I being selfish now? I don't know.
Well, the monsoon has come finally. It's cool and calm outside with greenery everywhere. I love the rainy days, sitting and watching the rain from my verandah is such a lovely thing to do during the monsoon months. If I have a cup of hot coffee and delicious chips made by my mother, it will be the most enchanting moment for me. Tomorrow, I got to pack my bags back to my workplace. My home has started to become a kind of holiday escape for me these days, but it's good that way rather than staying at home and forgetting about how much we can miss our home when we are away.
Well, so much for this week. See you all with my boring tantrums next time.....Have a good time !!!
